Saturday, October 31, 2009 »
2:47 AM
Im still alive in case ur wondering....
what up bitches.Im still not dead yet.Life has been going ape shit for the past few months.How long did it take for me to revive this blog again.i feel like revamping the whole blog cause im not going all omg gg ! anymore.yes the craze has died down.Yes i have have gone bat shit crazy in love with the house of night series.it all started when i saw the boy in the mrt reading the book.
ive been contemplating a while now whether i should buy the book or not and i tot hey if i boy dares to read this book and it shld be good thank god i listened to my gut cause i was fucking rite ! Deepavali has long gone but i was especially special this time cause we took lots of pictures with my grandma.
The exams are over as well thank-fucking-god.Im just really happy for my a math.it was a miracle and by gods grace i pulled thru and got i what i wanted.my mum is in her "omg my daughter finally did well in a math" haze and shes giving me whatever im asking rite now like the new ipod touch im gonna get yay !!! my freaking ear piece is spoilt damn it and i have to wear those god awful non in -ear ones.hehe.
But damn my hmt.one more mark to A2.freaking o level is two weeks from now.i just wanna do well.if not i have to listen to my tuition teacher drone on and on abt why couldnt i have done better.shes never satisfied with my results.not even a good job when i get an a2.Hello for a girl who doesnt speak tamil and yet get an a2 is already an achievement already.Stoopid asshat.iVE GOT THIS fetish with the boys in the vampire dairies.Paul wesley oozes sex.Dear god his green eyes,the perfect jaw structure,the sultry voice of his.ohhhhhhh.speaking of ive got this hungarian penpal whose in waterpolo.yay ! its fate i tell you i didnt even sign up for the thing and the rest who did got penpals of their gender.yes i know im a lucky bitch.come on feed my ego .
All the tv shows have started and i just do not have the freaking time to watch them.Cant believe new moon is coming in a month.holy shit.Im doubtful whether i can actually watch it especially since there a whole pile of holiday homework that has yet to collect dust.Ahhh its my fav kind of weather rite now .its pouring rain with a dash of thunder and a hint of lightning.The last day of school ended yesterday but i had to go to rgs for some shell dialogue abt climate change and up till now i still have not gotten a clue on what the whole talk was abt.
Anyway i went to borders by myself and the books there sucked ass.Saw the new moon calender thirty bucks.umm no thank you.anyway i wanted to go to kino so when i got out of wheelock it was pouring rain.i was too lazy to get the umbrella inside my bag.so there i was getting soaked under the rain and i got lost in orchard.whoopee.so i was like walking in circles trying to get to taka.when i finally got there.
everyone was staring at me cause i looked like shit and my blouse became see thru go figure i walked into kino went to the best sellers section and i stopped grinning like a fool.Tempted was there.the version i wanted.i just grabbed it and started hugging it .judging by look on evryone's faces they tot i was psycho.Then below tempted i saw the sequel for the hunger games and my grin stretched from ear to ear.then went to look for more books by the time i finished i had 6 books in my hands.ppl were staring at me .... again .god what is with ppl and their blatant staring lol.I did a mental calculation and the total coast was more than a 100 bucks.so i called my mum asking her so veer sweetly if could buy a 100 dollars worth of books.she was like are u crazy ? i dun care must be lesser than hundred.i knew it was a failed attempt .so i let go of my gossip girl books.
and turns out all my books were all other worldly.one was abt a girl fallin in love with a fallen angel.another one was abt falling in love with a wolf.I paid it with my netscard god i love the feeling of just shoving the card into the cashiers' faces who give u condescending looks.after that i bought myself famous amos cookies and went home.Hopefully the books will last till November.im gonna read them at snail pace if i have to.god the thunderstorms are getting loud today.im staring at my window and all i see are the faint silhouettes of the buidings.on the brighter side its cold yay .
Now where was i ..oh yes i really am not looking forward to the holidays at all im nuts .its a known fact yall.holidays always tend to end really quickly and i dun want the start of sec 4 life to be a slap in the face.i dun want to go near 2010.i fear that im gonna have really huge breakdowns next year that will be far worse then the one that happened this year.But deep down i know that there isnt any other choice.i have to face my life resolutely and just believe that it will get better.i just have to press on ....if only for the sure fact that i wont get sucked into abyss.God save me
Thursday, June 11, 2009 »
9:25 PM
I'm sorry to say this but the person who said dreams always do come true must have been really fucking high when he said it.i can't believe i got sucked into all this ape shit only to be left stranded in this solitude.i took my bruises,cried,
fell down and i got right back up .i don't know how or why or when i ended up this position I'm in.Once was enough twice is just too much.Its enough if the knife has stabbed your heart but to twist it, to add salt and water to the wound it just fucking hurts.I think i deserve the time to wallow in my sorrows.Who wouldn't be entertained with my life story.well u wanna see whats it like from my perspective ? I honestly didn't care about what will happen to me , I was willing to take the risk .I knew i just had to wait for the other shoe to drop the moment nothing happened.So is this gonna happen each time an opportunity arises only to fall back down again .Hope just isn't enough this time.No matter how much i know that its all i will ever want.There's always something in the way.I'm just so sick of feeling numb all the time.Guess happiness just doesn't work in this life its only destined to be filled with hurt.Isn't it so fun to watch me suffer in agony.Hey hurt, pain wants u back so stop sticking with me.I'm just glad the tears are never ending cause i don't want them to end
Friday, May 29, 2009 »
5:21 AM
Ok the whole my life is screwed phase is over i guess.But my life still sucks though.I can say hello goodbye to the holidays.Yay i get to go to OBS and still get promoted.thank you lord.The word kayaking has been thrown around lately.im gonna kayak for two camps.Finally i can flaunt my skillz if i have them of course.although i think im a bit rusty at it.Im gonna be apart from my parents for five days.longest ever.And im definitely gonna get homesick for sure.i just hope that i dont cry.stupid emotional me.Next monday i get to build sandcastles.wheeee and on friday i can go rock climbing.I have tons of hw and the usual ppt presentation for tamil.god im getting sick of it.Reunion scenes from New Moon have surfaced and i literally lost my voice.Plus i get to squeal more on 31 may when the trailer premieres.whoohoo.by the looks of it I know new moon's gonna be way better than twilight .i just hope my assumption gets justified.Ps i have a really big obsession with the Yeah Yeah Yeahs.You should listen to soft shock and zero.Its on repeat in my itunes.Plus that ah-mazing song from jordin sparks called battlefield.i adore it.Well in case ur wondering whether im still reading ff let me just end of this post by saying "im of to read fanfic u bunch of nimrods,toodles".
Monday, May 25, 2009 »
3:51 AM
Its been 2 months and i finally decided to screw my life and update this pathetic blog.What's been going on in my life u might wonder.well let me have the honour to break it down for all u numbskulls.i got in to OBS.I nearly got into the hilary challenge.i studied for common test until i fell sick and started to hallucinate.i freaking had at bio and pure geog on the same day.I got 1st for bio and fucking failed my geog til my teacher had to go all "what the fuck happened to u" in my fucking paper.i failed both my E and A maths.D7 and F9 respectively and im still laughing abt it.dark humour i guess.i got a B3 for hmt.my first throughout these three years of straight A's .My chem was okay to the say the least.com humans was ugh, though i got an A but still big whoop.English was arghhh my compo was filled with word vomit.got a b for that.ha guess i deserved that.Moving on to my npcc camp which i cant fucking attend cause obs is happening concurrently.fucked up holiday i guess.i have english sup for the first and the last week of june.i have my fucking o level mt oral in a few fucking days.i am practically fucked up beyond recognition.all my fav fucking shows have ended.half of the fucking year is abt to end.oh fucking joy !
i dun give a shit abt my life anymore.Fucking-A rite ? there isnt a fucking thing to look forward to.And to top it all of i have fucing heart condition that makes my blood fucking regurgitate.screw my fucked up life.
Friday, April 3, 2009 »
4:17 AM
Im sadly back after three wonderful days in a real high tech lab.school labs are gonna suck after this.the workshop was super duper fun and i surprisingly made friends with rjc girls.no offence to them though and one of them turned out to be a obsessed gg fan.yay us.had time to watch 90210 and read fanfic.
day 1
my father was kind enough to send me all the way to imcb which was in buoena vista.saw a group of students in the lobby and was waiting for sharmie to pick up her damn phone.later when we went in started feeling inferior .all of them were from st nicks ,rjc,njc,hwa chong....so yeah later our mentors RON AND XUE LI came.we started by revising on how to use a 300 + bucks pipette.super cool.then later we had to go catch zebrafishes.supercute fishies.we got seperated into grps.i was in bench four with an rjc gal,presby gal and a hwa chong guy.WE HAD TO WEAR LAB COATS AND GLOVES WHICH WAS AWESOME.and i forgot what we did after that.but it definitely was smth fun too.oooo now i remember we had to poke the eggs using needles with this ultra hi tech microscope.my babies got poked
day 2
went to imcb alone but saw the st nicks girls.slacked until 9 15 ish .went to facility to let the zebrafish mate.stared at them while they mate .zebrafish sex has got to be the only g rated sex i have ever seen.the eggs were falling like snow.collected the eggs.our grp was incharge of retinoic acid .had to place diff concentrations into the petri dish.then we had to dechorinate the embryos.
day 3
again went to imcb alone.went to check on our babies.they were like mutated like shit.with no eyes or a big yolk.but its was wholesome to see the heart beating .that u helped created the life.i was so proud.imy heart got all fuzzy wuzzy.later we had to do our presentation.bench four was the best.later we had to kill euthanise our eggs so that they wont take over the world.i almost cried.i know sappy much.later we took our grp photos.yay.then we cleaned up got our certs and ate ice cream.then we left AS A GRoup .was funny when u see a bunch of students walking together.I REALLY REALLY ENJOYED IT.so now all of us are probably facebooking i guess.lol haha .cant wait to get to school oh joy.....
Monday, March 16, 2009 »
12:43 AM
Finally freedom that will end in lets see in 5 hours.after this I'll be fucking busy gahhh.atleast i finished all my hw already.(internal conversation with myself) i did ?
yes u did dufus .oooo yay me .
yeah yay u for once u dint procrastinate.oh yeah ahuh ahuh.
hey douchebag arent u forgetting smth.oh yeah oops on with my post.Tomorrow theres this it thing where all pri sch mt teachers will be coming over.including mine.eeeep.since all my mt teachers have smth against me.pls let her be the nice one.not the evil pig faced one.oh pls pls.wednesday might be going out with the delicrats.finally getting my new watch.yes u guys can say it (finallly manju !!!!)thursday to sat.npcc camp.theres goes my fanfiction.hopefully the camp wld be fun.on sunday its my rest day.but wait i have a chem quiz to study for.damn it.stupid good for nothing holiday i hate u.on the bright side i finally got my hands on keri hilson's new album.her album is playing on repeat on itunes now.
Can't get you outta my system outta my system i shall go read more ff .bye goofballs and ohhhh I DO NOT LIKE FELIX FOO.GET THAT INTO THOSE THINK HEADS OF YOURS.FOR GOD'S SAKE
Friday, February 27, 2009 »
9:02 PM
SEC 3 LIFE SURE IS TAKING A TOLL ON ME.i actually enjoy looking forward to the weekend.like its my sactuary.i crave for it.ive never done that before.i have a feeling this year my life is gonna be filled with panic attackes driven by some kind of ridiculous insecurity that is bound to happen.oh god must hate me.AND the only cure would always be either reading ff which i barely have the time to do so or playing com.furthermore, there arent any shows to ctch up on.imagine when all the shows start in march.wtf am i gonna do.im like rushing for tests and doing crappy hw.my fucking o level mt paper starts in june for pete's sake.AP is killing me.its freaking boring now.my contingent sucks.but atleast i met my yog friend there .lol.also,surrounded by all the slumdog buzz.which i still dont get.its a good typical tamil film.whats so oscar worthy abt that.but the songs are an exception i must say.personally i think that tccobb was defintely beyond comparable to sm.i loved kate winslet's speech.zanessa was there.vanessa dancing around looking like a tramp.Twilight buzz is rising again because of the premiere in japan..speaking of twilight .theres this nonsensical rumour that drew barrymore is one of the candidates to direct eclipse.OMFG.PLus did i ever tell u karma is such a eager bitch.i was playing soccer during pe and i slipped .hello wet slippery field.denise was laughing at me and then we contunued playing no less that 30 secs she slipped and fell.but she sprained her ankle .ooooooooouch.hop u get well soon .did i mention that im becoming such a dumbass nowadays .plus i dun get it.smth is seriously wrong with me.im like doing well in the subjects the detest the most.hate them to the core.but the subjects i favour i end up just gettin measely grades gahhh.my brain is screwed.well i gotta go doiwnload more music and catch up on ff .bye shitfaced ppl